I feel impossible


I feel impossible

when I feel the impossible

 

I feel screwed up, winded up and fucked up

I feel anxious, nervous and obnoxious

I feel I'm losing my temper, my timer and my tether

 

I feel impossible

when you say nothing

and leave me without luck or sign

 

I feel impossible to move, talk or think

 

I feel impossible when I'm stuck

Not stuck with you

Stuck without you

 

I feel impossible

when I feel I've not made it

when I feel I won't make it

 

I feel impossible

when my time seems timeless

or when the time is so hard

that what's left is of no use

 

I feel impossible

when I know I'm doing wrong

when I let them do,

when I let them do me

  

I feel impossible

when I'm with you without being 

without being with you

without you

 

I feel impossible

when you tell me

you don't know

when you think I'm not there

when you look at your watch

and would rather forget

and be elsewhere

 

I feel impossible

when you cry on me

and nothing resounds 

 

I feel impossible

would you tell me why?

 

I feel impossible

in the unsaid, the undone and the unfinished

 

I feel? How do I feel? Do I feel?

 

I feel impossible

when the wind fails to touch me

and feel impossible

when it's impossible to feel

 

But by the end

In spite of everything

Nevertheless and nowithstanding

it’s always the impossible that manages to happen